Turning the big 04…

Lorelei turns 4 at the end of this month… and Lisanne gave me the great idea of a tea party… and since we aren’t going to have any little kids running around here (well besides her sissy) I think it would also make it kind of fun for the family… so now it is the hunt for recipes for the meal after church that day… and i think so funny hats and stuff… aka some great blackmail photos of the guys later…

and i still haven’t gotten my 1 year review at work yet… which means i still can’t apply for jobs because I want a pay raise and then another pay raise with the new job lol… keep your fingers crossed that it will happen soon… so sick of the crap… and stupid people that can’t follow the instructions I give them… if this was school they would of failed… yes this was very much a people hating week lol!

The last month…

ok so sorry I have been awol for the last month but those of you that have friended me on facebook know what has been going on… most nights when I come home I am too tired to look dor a different job… but tonight since I can’t seem to get sleepy… I did some fast looking… and found these 3 jobs… I really want to get out of cash… I’m not into numbers… ugh… they suck lol… sooooo not me… but saw these different jobs… one is for Jeremy’s company lol… doing cash like i am doing now lol… how funny is that… but I do want a job closer to home… so the hospital one would be cool… and different…
Hospital job

Credit Analyst

Jeremy’s company

well i am going to look some more… also need to house hunt for my parents lol… trying hard to get them to move out here… oh yeah and our babysitter for Lorelei sold their house and they are moving to the DC in June… ugh… geez thanks for the warning… argh so now I gotta find a new sitter for both girls… oh yeah and have been at the hell hole for a year now… and have I had my review… NO… argh!!!!

Ok, I’m going to go take some thing to make me sleepy… come on allergy meds lol…

the hunt is on

Lisanne is helping me to revamp my resume and the hunt is on…

On friday they let go the admin in our Cinny office… she found out the Monday before that she was losing her job… they said they didn’t have the money for her… yet they have 2 temps working in our office at $16+ an hour (more than the admin) and just hired another collector… I have everyone hounding me about AR crap… and none of it is my fault that I am behind (it is everyone else adding more and more crap)… they demanded i work this past weekend… it is just crap… i get so little time with the girls I will not give up my weekends without a really good reason… so I am looking for something closer to home… because in 2 short years Lorelei will be in school… and gotta think about that and where she is going to go etc…

Annabelle wants to walk sooooooo bad… she really doesn’t like being on her belly, hands or knees… she wants to walk… she loves to stand… LOVES it… her fave food is carrots, peas, apples and mangos… hates rice cereal still… but likes the oatmeal stuff… and it looks like my boobs are giving out boob juice wise… plus it doesn’t help that the one room i can use to pump is always busy… so i can’t pump at work… jerks… so i have lost 2 pumping times at work… the peds office is having us try a lactose free sentive tummy formula… but only issue now is the cost… ugh… and now at 6m the formula companies don’t send out those formula checks anymore… soooo screwed lol…

so lots of prayers would be awesome… I really wanna find a job where god wants me at… I want my girls to be happy… etc…

thanks…

dying a slow death…

Ugh… I’m sick… I hardly get sick but when I do I go down fast… to make it even worse… gotta go to that hell hole tomorrow… argh!

I’m still looking but by the time I get home at 7 at night I am too tired to look… but I need to… badly… I feel like i am dying a slow death… I miss being able to be myself, being creative, being with the girls… Lorelei tells me every day she misses Jeremy and I… we only see her for like 2.5 hours in a day… because of coming home so late… so please pray for us and for me to find a new job…

My parents are out for a while… not sure when they are going back because my mom was forced to quit work… stupid hospital politics… sorry i have no idea why anyone would want to go into nursing when one crazy patient can kill your career… gotta love those suverys they get to fill out… and yes the patient was crazy… really… on lots of meds… but anyways…

Annabelle (AB) is a champ at sitting up… and now is standing on her own if she has one hand on stuff… she hates to be on her belly… so i don’t think she will crawl for long… but she is trying but she gets super angry when she tries because she moves backwards… and when she gets mad… well she has quite the war cry lol…

Her well visit at 6m went ok… she had a double ear infection (would of never guessed… showed no signs of it), got 3 shots, 26 inches long, 14.8 pounds, and 16 inc head cir… the doctor is worried for how little she sleeps during the day and night… Jeremy and I already knew she is a snuggle bug/comfort sucker (complete opposite of Lore) so the doc said her eating at night is just wanting that comfort suck and to cut that bottle out… and to really push the solids… since she isn’t a huge fan of rice cereal we are to add stage 2 meats… so still on stage 1 veggies and fruits… but it seems that she likes that baby oatmeal stuff… so we mix that with fruit and boob juice and she will eat it up… veggies we put with meat and the rice… she does ok on that… and yes i am still pumping… ugh… but her little body doesn’t handle formula well at all… and we are still adding goats milk to the boob juice to add fat content… i basically produce skim milk lol…

But yesterday I got the girls Easter dresses… Lore’s is pink with fluff (ugh) and AB’s is white with flowers printed on the bottom of them… both from carter’s but I can’t find any links to them right now… but Lore picked out her own dress… ugh how did i get a girly girl… really… she now wants a pink room… please shoot me… oh we had to get her new shoes… so she got a pair of light of sketchers called twinkletoes… I want a pair… they are so funky!!!

well AB just woke up… wow a whole 10 mins nap…

Life after 2 Blizzards in less than a week

Yesterday marked that it had been one week since the 2nd blizzard… it also marks that I work for a company that in one way doesn’t care about people’s safety… and that I need out… I will explain all of that in a password protected post and give much more details… but needless to say i have hit my limit… and i am leaving the devil’s company once i have something else… please pray for me… this isn’t just effecting me… but the girls, Jeremy, my ability to produce boobie juice and pump… which i am really tired of doing…

But here are some photos….

nicknames and oh yeah… cut it alllll off… finally the photos…

I am dying to give Annabelle a nickname… when typing it is just AB (like Alton Brown on foodnetwork.com) but I won’t call her that… my FIL seems to forget what her name is (the dude is a pastor and can remember everything but her name lol) so he calls her Samantha from time to time… Lore calls her Annabelle or now Anna… but to me she either looks like a Bella or a Sam… lol… but she needs more hair lol for me to make a final choice lol…

So, what does she look like to you all?




never home

sorry that I’m not doing better with my blog, but i’m up before 6am and don’t get home till after 7pm at night… Mon- Friday… and by the end of the day my brain just doesn’t work anymore… they also have now blocked all blog sites… so i can’t even read blogs when i am at work… I miss reading everyones blogs… I miss blogging… I just miss spending time at home…

I think that I should look for a job closer to home… one where I don’t need to worry every day will i have a job because the CFO hates me… no matter what others say (as in Shannon is a hard worker, she does a great job, etc…) the man and his family hates me…but if I get a new job what will htat mean for pumping at work? I have the car adpters so i could do it at lunch in the car… but I know I won’t make enough breast milk for Annabelle… speaking of which has THREE teeth before she turned 4 months old… crazy… and they aren’t even the front teeth… they are side ones… past the I teeth… but before the molars… and she is cutting more… poor kid… and she will not nurse now because of it… so frustrating… i’m back to feeling like i am a cow… but i think her new hair coming in is blond… i might actually get my blondie… Lore’s hair has never been blond… and you would think with 2 blond parents you would get blond kids.. but nope lol…

but, i am going to pump and see if i can get a nap in while Annabelle is napping… so pray that i can find a nice normal job close to home…

Please shoot me or at least remove my ears…

What a horrible weekend… sorry but it SUCKED!

Now I have said that Lore has had allergies since birth… she really has… and it seems each year it gets worse (and in the new year we are going to go to a new allgerist to get her retested)… well Lore really hasn’t had any allgery meds work for her until we tried Singlair (oh however it is spelled)… I also think she has a touch of asthma… because she had a “allergy cough” all summer long… whenever the pollen was bad… she had a cough… well the singlair really has seem to gotten rid of it… well all last week she was all puffy eyed, runny nose, coughing, pulling on her ears etc… so I knew she was dealing with sinus pressure on top of her allergies… well Friday the cough was worse… by Friday night it was even worse… she also had a slight temp… so cold? not sure… well all night she coughed… then at 4… it got worse she was crying and coughing etc… well that was it for me… we were going to go to the doc… that is when Annabelle started in… and that is when I thanked God for making me smart enough to get my tubes tied lol… Jeremy took Lore downstairs and I dealt with Annabelle… so glad we don’t have a 3rd lol… I couldn’t of dealth with a 3rd crying/screaming kid/baby… I think this is why since having Annabelle I went from having no grey hair to a huge mass of it… and oh yeah… going to dye it…

Well, Lore had a sinus infection… a nasty one.. allergy induced… so she is on drugs now to kill of the nasty bug… and I am just happy that the blood from her nose is gone… it would just slide out of her nose… no blowing just slide… ewww… but that is how bad it was… her tubes are still there so now we really need to make sure to watch her ears with all the crap in her head… I know they are working because I just cleaned off the back of her ears a TON of wax and crap… it was very gross lol…

And Annabelle has been a pill for the last 2 days… I’m so tired but scared to go sleep that she will wake screaming again right after my head hits the pillow… no idea what is wrong with her but yesterday it was gas (well we think lol)… today we are just clueless… she was so happy this morning and then BAM… soooooo not happy… she has spent 90% of today crying… she also didn’t want to eat much… and we tried all kinds of bottles of breast milk in the fridge… didn’t want it… didn’t want to eat off the boobs… sucked on nuk some… hasn’t slept much either today… normally she would laugh and such at Lore… but not today…

So, I am going to eat my muffins and drink my diet soda and go play a puter game while she sleeps because mama needs to let off some steam… and so glad I gotta go to work… I need a break from my kids lol… oh yeah… pray for my back… I’m now a 38I yes that is my cup size… an I… and my back and neck are a mess… I have been to the chirco for 5 straight weeks and my back keeps getting worse… so I might have to stop breast feeding soon so I can get a reduction some time soon… and yes I have a good bra… it has 4 (or 5 depending on which bra) hooks… and since my milk has come in I have put on 5 pounds…

but in happy news… I can now fit into a 2x shirts at Old Navy… ON cuts their clothes very small so to me that is a huge deal… didn’t try any pants on but I got 2 sweaters that I needed soooo badly… I didn’t really buy any clothes last winter when I hit 20/22 size wise… and well now I am dying… I need stuff so badly…. but… I am off to my puter game… Dragon Age rocks!

This weekend…

well first off Annabelle is 2 months old today… the first 6 weeks seemed to have gone by so slowly but since being back at work it seems like it is going by at a normal pace now… she was going to have her 2 month well visit tomorrow but we had to cancel it because Jeremy had to be in at work… he was going to work from home and take her in but we now have the appointment on black friday… so by then she will be almost 3 months old lol… oh well… they didn’t have any evening appointments and I’m not missing anymore work for a well visit…

Halloween was a bust for us thanks to mother nature being a pissy brat… it rained.. ok it poured… ice cold rain… argh… Lore, Annabelle, and I got to 2 houses… which

sucked… Lore was so into it… she got it this year… she knew what to say and do etc… but I got a few pictures… but haven’t uploaded them to flickr yet, but they are up on facebook… I wil post them later to here… Annabelle was tinkerbelle the same outfit she wore home from the hospital… and Lorelei wore one of her purple disney dress up dresses and I got her some wicked cool wings… not sure if they are fairy or butterfly but they are sweet looking… they were purple and blue… I love them lol… and I got her some flower hair clips to pull her hair up… she looked so cute and she was so happy till she got wet from the rain… lol…

Earlier in the day I had taken her to Michaels to do a free craft project.. got some Martha glow in the dark glitter… and I am going to try to make some glow stars and such for Lore to put in her room… also got stuff to carve her pumpkin but we never got to it… might do it later like this weekend lol… she won’t notice the difference lol…

Sunday I went to a big consignment sale and scored some good deals… got some Hannah Andersenn, heart strings, gymboree stuff at great prices… and got a brand new jumperoo thing for Annabelle… She likes it lol…

well I need to get Lore into bed and pump… Annabelle is passed out cold… oh yeah we have no idea what to call her for short… lorelei has called her Annabelle, Anna, Ann, Belle, Bella, Sissy, OhSister (says it all in one breath like it is one word), and ding a belle… Lore loves her to bits… can’t wait for Annabelle to get into her stuff and see what happens lol… oh yeah… Annabelle still SNOORES like she is an out cold drunk and grunts, etc in her sleep… she is sooo noisy in her sleep… how can something so little be so noisy lol… and loud!

trying to update…

i have been having a horrible time trying to update… if i’m not nursing Annabelle, then I’m pumping… or yelling at Lorelei for being a snot… needless to say the last 6 weeks have been hard and very thankful to go back to work today… i know most moms hate going back… but for me it was freedom… I wasn’t yelling at the top of my lungs at Lorelei for again getting into the fridge and getting things out to “cook” when I am in the middle of nursing Annabelle (you really can’t rip a baby off when doing that)… it gave my body a bit of a break too… I could pump for 15- 20 mins and be done… at home… Annabelle will nurse for 2 hours… TWO HOURS… argh! ANd I hate with a passion breast feeding… HATE IT… but Annabelle doesn’t do well on formula so I have no choice… and my boobs work this time… and I’m cheap…

yeah I’m not designed to be a stay at home mom with no money… or with a 3 year old that won’t listen… I couldn’t go anywhere while I was home, either because of no money (unpaid mat leave for 6 weeks) or because Lorelei just doesn’t listen at all… and I will no put up with that crap… or we couldn’t go out because I have to postion myself in such a way to get Annabelle to nurse… need a boppy, a pillow, a blanket for cuddle baby, and 2 different nipple shields… and I am now a 38I cup… my lower back is killing me, and the chiroprator is very worried for me… oh yeah try finding a bra in that size…

i’m back to my pre-preggy weight, but none of my clothes fit that i could wear pre preggy, and even some of my mat clothes are tight… and I can’t go back to my gastric bypass diet… so no loosing weight for now… so another year of being fat…

yes, i am frustrated… and i love my girls, and thankful that i have them… and i am tired… i know it will pass but ya know it can’t come soon enough… and i hope to able to post something real soon…

feeling almost normal… boobie questions

today was day 2 of my parents not being here… and I think things are slowly going back to normal… Lorelei is really dealing with her emotions and being a part from me or Jeremy… tomorrow he is going to take her to the sitters to get her out of the house and play some… can’t do it to much since I’m not getting paid right now… ugh I hate that btw… you know instead of health care for all… why don’t we do free health care for all kids and paid maternity leave with every company having a special room for pumping…

Like Lisanne had posted for me earlier… my boobs work this time… and I am going back to work… great… now where to pump at work… Annabelle hasn’t had any issues going from boob to bottle… I do have to use a nipple shield… but think of it as a corset for my nipples lol… I might have to use it forever… Right now Annabelle just gags on it… btw… had an amazing boobie lady at the hospital… unlike the 3 jerks I had when I was in for Lorelei… her name on her badge was Boobie Barb… how funny is that…

But got a boobie question… because lets face it… this is all new to me… Lorelei never ever latched on… and I just pumped… and was happy if I got a oz and half… I’m now getting 2.5 to 3oz on a normal pumping… but here is the issue and question… Annabelle and my boobs are on different time zones lol… I have even put off pumping for up to an hour to get us on the same timing… and nada… why… because when she is out… she is out cold sleeping… nothing wakes her… so I pump and BAM… as soon as I am done… she wakes up… EVERYTIME… today she got boobs about 30% of the time… so it is slowly getting better… but when my milk comes in for a feeding… it feels like someone has stabed me in the nipples and the the milk just comes running out… but most of the time one boob is enough for Annabelle… but I pump the other one… but at church I only ever see people use one boob and not the other… so… is that the norm? I really don’t know… for now while I am at home I don’t care… I am freezing the extra boob juice… but not sure what to do later…

Oh yeah… pumping at work… how do you all do it that pumped at work… there isn’t an outlet in the bathroom… and it is set up like a bathroom at home… one toliet and one sink… that is it… so if I am in their pumping no one else can use it… plus… no outlet… all the offices have inner windows… so again… don’t know what to do… and do I have any “rights” in pumping at work… Annabelle spits up formula (learned that at the hospital when we were waiting for my milk to come in)… so I need to pump to feed Squirmy…

So any tips and ideas would be great… thanks!

catching up

my parents have finally left… so now I am playing bloggy catch up… remember they don’t know about my blog… and I want to keep it that way… anyways… I’m trying to get caught up on everyone’s blog and then I will post what happened in our little world that last few weeks… and why we had Annabelle a day early etc… btw… DO NOT get the Applebee’s A1 Steakhouse burger… you will be sick forever… argh… back to the bathroom…

I spoke too soon :)

It’s Lisanne again. Shannon asked me to post the following to her blog:

“right now, i’m sore… not moving in your sleep makes ya sore after a while lol… so that is why I am awake at this hour [4:30 a.m.]… need to shift some more but right now don’t care lol…

Annabelle did something last night that Lore never did… she breastfeed for about 10 mins on my left boob… tried my right and didn’t want it… but to do it I have to be on my side… which is hard and very painful at this time because of what little bit of fat flap I have hanging there pulls on the c-section site… don’t think my milk has come in… because they don’t hurt right now… but that right there makes me so happy…

She also doesn’t like having her legs swaddled up… arms fine… legs bad… makes for very upset baby…

and her hair is super soft… Lore’s wasn’t like that… and there is so much of it… my lord lol… but her eyelashes are blond and not nearly as long as Lorelei’s…. she has my ears, same lips as Lore- still don’t know who’s lips Lore has lol… Jeremy’s long fingers and hands, and his monkey toes… and her little bum fits in my hand… she is very tiny…

My parents got here around 7ish last night and hung out till about 9 something… oh yeah and I am having a completely different experience this time around with the c-section… I felt human this time around etc. but i am going to go sleep more.”

edit:
this is me after i had lorelei in 06…

She’s out!

That’s about all I know right now … well, I also know her name ~ that is, if Shannon and Jeremy haven’t decided on a different one! hehe :) Congratulations to Shannon, Jeremy, and big sister Lorelei! I cannot *wait* to see pictures and hear more details, hopefully soon … and I hope that Shan is getting some rest now. I just got back from taking the kids to our county fair. And I promise to stop hijacking Shannon’s blog now, LOL! :)

Another update from Shannon

She’s having her baby TODAY at 10 a.m.!!! Yeah! :)

I’m copying this information pretty much directly from an e-mail that she sent me this morning at 7:50 a.m.:

“Was up every 2 hours to pee … and sweated all night … i think it was my body’s way of getting out some of the toxins from the hornet attack … doing NST now … and got a few ice chips … no breakfast … they said Doc K. is the doc on call for my group … he is the one that ate lunch in between patients and took me 2 hours at the office on my 1 hour lunch break. but pray for Jeremy … he has a horrible sore throat … he feels like crap …
OK morning nurse just came in … going to bring in IV pole and draw blood … she said that it is a sign of doing the C-section today … but doesn’t mean it will happen …”

But … looks like it will! Yay! :)